couldn't fall alseep as usual. and yet, i din really so called, "study hard" for my UT tml, especially OP :s

it seems that i'm more worried my PP poster rather than OP even tho i know i'm completed within 2 hrs in a rush and yet nice ppt of the designing of my background slide, i guess.

schoolwork have been pretty hectic for these few days, 2UTs and PP.
manage to clear all those hectic schoolwork in 1 day time,
consider myself "out of stress"
hehehehhe xD

walk to school with joe this morning as usual.
and Y-E-S, (insist to give a big cap letter in it, -.-), i'm late again
and kinda feel sorry to let someone, all along the times to wait for me.

received a sms from '"a guy, whom im not close with so called, mutual friend'" regard on concerning me and my safety while walking to school. I mean, wth is this? or shld I say blessing in disguise? NO !!!!!!!! that is definitely not the way I want and in the way that I might feel that I have to beware on you. Well, I’m not so evil in the extreme way. I just might regret on my action to give you my msn contact through fb. Thinking that you ask all sort of funny and “obvious” question on me during lesson time, im tired and end with your conver by giving 1 word to you, “LOL”

*manage to survive with oovoo rather than having the msn throughout the weekend w/o your disturbance: D:D

Meet up with suet, Christ, jas, Natasha for break 1. TRCC, my favourite place ! :D:D

Break2, lay and gar at koufu! It’s been a super long time since I went. And yet, I did not order anything, but just ice milo itself.

OP talks with lay aft sch. Nth much to talk about just for the sake of DA point.

YES ! i'm seriously broke, yes i'm broke! ):

 [[ on the side track]] :)

This gonna be a long post even tho it is been a long long long long long time since I hv updated. Well, I do admit tht I’m lazy and hate blogging and it seems that there is nth to talk abt. But, I do try to and write as much as I can to make up for th times that I hv not been update here.

[[back on track]]
and yet, i'm stubborn as in i wont ask for money from my parents.
know ing that they are working so hardddddd to support this family and ME ! ):
and th money they earn comes from their hard time and effort.
i guess, i shouldn’t go for break to spend more than $5 per day.

sometimes, i just ponder over why things have changed so much differently.

or, am i starting to think too much?
idk, don ask me what happen and why.

cos i cant give a definition of that.

Friends are hard to come by, I know. And that’s how fate has brought us together, to become classmate throughout your schooling life. I guess nobody seems to be 100% perfect, so do I. everybody seems to be in diff classes, and yet I know we would not always go for break every now and then. But, I do treasure every one of you as my real friends in life. Even tho, I do not hv th time to acc some of you, or either be it in a reverse way.  they might not be perfect, but they do give you hugs of warmth when you’re cold, give you a hand when you fall. Little effort did by them, ought to be treasured always. Tiff should not get in to destroy the bond that we hv throughout the 4 seasons that we make it through.

oh no! UT1 , Facilities planning and design,  is coming soon on next monday. T.T

Facilities planning and design. Compared to my other 4 modules, it seriously suck to th max as I do not really like at all. We have to design and draw the layout for the facilities, be it in kitchen, office work, sandwich counter and other by using the Microsoft visio and hv to explain your concept and idea and everything during presentation. and wad’s make me to unlucky is tt I hv to switch class on every tues  facilities lesson, which make me feel pissed off of it right from th beginning !

 Finally get C for problem 4 for my daily grade, thx ah ! )))))))):

yup, school start with a class full of foreigner in the new semester.
indo, mymmar, china, vietnam
nice people, i guess?
and yet, they are smart and intelligent.
and i used to feel so useless in everything as compared to them

what could i ask more for it?

so far so good, sch lesson seem to be getting interesting each day especially on thur, OP and fri, MCP. hv a great team mate to make fun with and everything. (:

talking crap with lamer jokes, that how makes the team even more lovely and fun :D

I think I shld try my best to keep my habit of blogging.

Life has been boring so far since the starting of the holiday aft UT3, I guess?. And now, it left less than a week for me to enjoy what’s my real life of becoming taitai? Enough of helping my elder sis to help her work. Enough of becoming a nanny to take care of my cousin’s baby. Ya! Enough and tht’s all enough for me to do these 2 things that occupy all my “free” time to settle them.

Ytd night was my class chalet. And yet, I didn’t go. Sms-ed to rane and said, “my mum and I have to go msia for serious matter”. I know tht sound like exaggerate, isn’t it so?

But the true fact shows that I did went to msia with my mum, however, not the fact to serious matter, indeed was to settle a minor problem regarding about the transferring the money in mybank account? Well, this sort of financial transfer of money and interest thing, I’m not gonna to bother it.

I was surprised to see my mum take half day of her work and back to home. Knowing the fact tht she needs to go msia and ask me to tag along with her, I have made up my decision to follow her too. Idk why I feel some sort of guilty in it, cos I break the promise to them.

Received an email from “idk who’s the person”. Well, I have to rework on my PP despite the fact tht I’m glad my plagiarism status 14%. Sickening to rework, sickening to know tht my advisor is having his holiday till the sch reopen. He doesn’t even show me what’s wrong with it, and the part that I have to amend. Bullshit ! you don even bother to see my work, and the fact you just tell me to improve on my PP report by minimising the % of my plagiarism status. you are just wasting our time tht we hv to complete our sch work asap before sch reopen.

Yup and I know its time for me to update.

Kinda feel tht it is meaningless for me to update my daily life, isn’t it so?

And for this 1 whole month of holiday,

-       Aft attending joe chalet, hp lost and left it at taxi. And hence, cant get in touch with my friends for temporary moment.

-       PP completed :D have to wait for reply from advisor

-       UT3 sucks at a big time. 3C 1B+ :s

-       And so, GPA. 2.75 )))))):

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You know, I’m just lazy ! ):

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And I just realise sth, I wanna fall asleep for updating the rest of what I have done to make use of my holiday.

And so, wont you feel tht isn’t it boring to see wad’s all sort of my daily life??

You get sick of it, so do I. amd i guess im tired of blogging.

HOLIDAY! J

Oh yes, it has been quite awhile since my last blog entry.

Until now, I do not know when I can recover back from cough. Sorry peeps, pardon me for coughing in front of you or behind ur back! And it is damn fucking sickening tht there is this kind of ‘yellowish-substance’ keeps stuck at my throat. Would want to split it out, but swallow it in the end. ARGH !!!! andandand, it is damn irritating to clear ur throat first, while you are able to talk with ur frene. Oh man, I really can’t control my laughter whenever the cliques of mine were making fun with “somebody” in my class. Cos it makes me cough very badly till I feel tht I’m died from lacking of air.

Right now, let the times flew back to 1 week ago?? Till I’m totally MIA for one whole week. ^^

28 July 2009- TUES

Sorry George faci, I’m not a good girl, I know. Cos this would be my first time to zao halfway for ur lesson. (Or shld I say the FIRST day of this semester??) And yet, you are so kind and generous to give me D for my daily grade even though I did not do ur RJ.  So, it left 1 team to be the survivor for staying throughout the day.

30 July – Thur

My super long RJ for the week . :S

Question: What would you like to achieve in life in the next 10 years?

Response: A kinda familiar phrase when you were talking with me on this, while going to school together? Haha. Well, seriously speaking, just do not say the word of ‘achieve’, till now I have no idea what I really want to achieve in my life for my next 10 years. I can’t predict and see my future, my working environment and colleagues. Life has been changed, so do our dreams and life goals. In the end, that makes me think that my so called, a ‘dream?’, has been shattered, and forever will stay in my ‘dream that will not happen in my life’. When I was young, I used to dream to be a teacher, able to have the rights and everything to teach what you want, and to have the privileges to scold those students who are not behaving themselves. Somehow, this dream of mine has been changed when I’m starting to think of achieving the other. I’m used to think of becoming a nurse one day. To be able to take care those people who really needs your help, and how they would feel appreciated by your kind of effort and the time being with them. And how they would feel that, ‘you are the angel’ and stand an important place in their heart that would never be forgotten. But right now, this dream of mine has been changed to another, which is to become a boss, who starts to work with my working partners of having a small shop, where the shop is located at inside of the shopping mall, selling those entire famous bakeries. But now, I feel the urge to become a social worker, able to help all those people with all your might so as to become a sociable and responsible people of being a real Singaporean. In my past 18 years, I always thought that I would live my life with no regrets; somehow it doesn’t seem it to be. Sometimes, how I wished there would be a reversal of time, to have the strong perseverance and determination to hold on my dream and be able to achieve what we really want so that we could do as we please. Would I be able to support my parents when they are old? Would I able financially stable without the help of others in the future? Would I be able to live with my own desire life? Thinking all sorts of the questioning in my head, would make me feel that I have really need to start to think of myself in the future time, to be able to know myself where I would land up to work as? So right now, I have to focus on my studies, and tried to get more A for my daily grade, also get a better grade for my UT as well. So that, I would able to get a good GPA score and be able to achieve what I really want in my future. But, it seems hard for me to get A nowadays. )))):

Din realise that I would able to write 500+ words of this RJ this time round. As you can see from the highlighted above, I can’t believe tht I was walking to sch with my statistics faci, LEE AH PING >.< And so all along the way, he was talking with me by having this kind of conversation. -.-

31 July – Fri

Happy belated birthday, zichun !

Shock to see when I know ur birthday ? LOL ! cos I ask from andrea, who record down the list of w26j’s peeps of their birthday  -.-

1 august – sat

Met GH for movie, HANGOVER ! :D

Oh man, kinda mess up the movie titles, ‘hangOVER’ and ‘OVERheard’ tht shown in the show times. Able to catch up with the movie, even though we just reach on time.

Met SL in orchard. Went to far east to have our dinner at the KFC, and so edith came and join us too. “好的鞋子，会带你去好的地方！”

Tht is GH ‘s favourite phrase to say this. [Extract from the boys over flowers, if you guys watch tht Korean drama. ] and this phrase of hers, was keep repeating and repeating till edith almost wanna fed up with her. HAHAZ ! :D

GH bought her shoes, and so do I. and yet, we hv to wait for her to decide buying which pair of shoes for damn freaking long hrs.

*F-A-I-N-T

Oh yes, and I hv complete my mission of writing out more than 1000 + words of my blog entry . ^^

While taking the temp during third meeting,

1^st time - 38.3

2^nd time - 37.3

3^rd time - 37.9

4st time     -     37.6

And so on and so forth, till the times that I cant rmb how many times did I take my temp )): But, sad to say. The temp that I hv taking so far, it will be higher than 37.5.

Now, she feels extremely tired and HOT  today aft taking a ‘cold’ shower. And now, it does not shower away my ‘HOT’ temp off my body. She keeps it to herself, tht she do not want to tell these to her parents. I should make myself, smile more, eat more, drink water :D:D

There are certain things which bother me loads loads more tht I do not know why? How, It happened in this way whenever it seems to let my mind run wild in every minute and sec. And there are certain things which I really hv no idea wad’s going on with me tht it seems to bother me a lot. Mayb I shld stop it and try to relax on myself, to think on my past the happiness moment that I used to go with my dearest friends.    [side track]

Time really files, 18 yrs of my life has gone. And how I wished I could borrow Doraemon’s time machine. To go back to my past, to cherish the times with my closer friends in yckss or Rp year 1 classmate. I miss secondary school life, and I miss the zaoing lesson with my ex class )))))))):

Still can use my available leave although I gotta 2X for my inventory management. [Hv a gd reason to excuse myself on tht 2 days, of coz =x] but, kinda waste to use it as the prob of the day is getting tougher each week and for the sake of my UT, been forced to stay stay stay in class. ))))):

[back to track]

Was reflecting upon my life during each sem of my class.

-          Yr 1 / sem 1 – quiet to the max tht you might not believe now!

-          Yr 1 / sem2 – able to talk socialize more and indeed I treat my class as my 2^nd home :D:D not woman enough, ah-lian scolding vulgar to the max, love to sit faci chair etc. but somehow, I make the wrong decision even though you knw the outcome would think in an indirect way.  love relationship stuff?? hahas, don dare to think abt it anymore

-          Yr 2 /sem 1 –same with previous, but somehow get tired easily to bother all those trivial matters. And agn, it brings back to my memories of the past where I used to hv go through tht stage of life. It reflects on ur mind and u used to think why the world is full of imperfections tht many times when people are fated to meet together, they used to become friends, but they argued, they quarrel, they disagreed and fight, in the end, slowly turns into stranger where they do not want to talk with each other anymore.

You are trying to be nice by solving this matter. Somehow, you would get suffocate easily of standing in between them. So, shall let it go from now.  

[P.S not reflecting in current situation in an extreme extent but reminds me of the past]

 

心理面对一个人的恨，不可能这样的，淡忘掉。

我明白。

所以，我选着渐渐得离开你。

即时，从普通朋友演变成陌生人。

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A feeling of hatred towards someone will not fade away.

So, I choose to keep a distance from you even thought I do not know the reason, why?.

a mixture of mixed feelings that bother and affect her emotion.

Even though she choose to keep herself.

Watch Transformers 2 at Amk hub with Jocelyn, Joanna, luvy, suet and Daniel. Well girls, I’m not sleeping in cinema, okay? And, I’m not really quite tired at all. Just that the fighting scene is tooooooo boredddddd and I rather choose to close my eyes and take a nap for a few mins ((:

And, I just realize sth. I shld learn to know everyone in my class, of their working attitude. Is just not that I don really like, but …………………………

But…….

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[give up in the end as I’m stuck in here]

Haix, I don really know how to describe and phrase it btw, but in the sense that I shld take note myself from now on )))))))))):

I’m not gonna bother about this matter, but just not to face the same problem again for the rest of the weeks. And god, would you kindly donate some ‘intelligence brain’ for me???!!!

Anw, golden fish will be coming back to S’pore nxt Friday and kinda miss her loads loads more. HAHAZ! :D

Begins to have some doubts to a certain people; are they truly friends?

Human beings, each have our own unique aspect and characters or personality. But, I’m just wondering; how some people from a stranger become acquaintance or rather best friends, while others from friends turn to foes.

At a certain point of time; we start to hate each other, just because they did it in a certain level where you really can’t stand it, right from the bottom of your heart where your feelings does not deceive you. You certainly hope that ‘this person’ would change, but I’m just wondering is that any difficulties of changing her attitude towards certain people around her? Hmm, I’m doubt so and I think is rare. All along, I thought I’m only the ones who are sensitive towards facing this. But, it’s quite surprise to see where others agree with you, right?

Friends come and go. Either from the past or now, you would start to think; how close and bond you are with the current class?

Whenever we change to different classes every semester, you would find that you are no longer getting close to them anymore right from the start.

Whenever you meet them in some areas of school canteen, I would say ‘hi’ or ‘bye’ to them since we know each other together being in a class before.

Start to wonder, the laughter that we share together, going lurch with them and hanging out with them would become a part from your memory now that these would probably no longer happen it anymore.

When will be our next class outing with the ex class that you get close with? Is there any class outing with so as to in contact with each other?

Times have changed and are not waiting for us, for those who stays in your heart and plays a significant role of become a part of your bestie friend, I would say I should cherish this friendship even more.

Nowadays, young commuters are getting inconsiderable at all time as in a certain extent. In such a peak hour, you would expect to see the greatest number of people travelling by MRT. So, what would be the first thing that comes out straight in your mind when you think of MRT? Hmm, I would say is Phoa Chu kang sign as it states as, “please give the seats to those who needed it!”

So, here’s come it goes. I intend to give the priority seat to one of the elderly man. (looks strong and physical build and stays a long distance away from me a bit). And yet, the seat has been taken by somebody else. And somebody else, which I have mention earlier on, is belongs to one of the ‘inconsiderate’ gangs.  It is quite annoying when you hear ‘that person’ who is telling to you with the words, “EXCUSE ME!”

I meant, I don really know when is the time that you are allow to sit at the place even if you knew I’m suppose to give up the seat to elderly. Though the elderly replied an answer with, “NO!”

AND, WHO SAYS YOU ARE ALLOWED TO TAKE THAT SEAT WITHOUT MY PERMISSION??!!!! ARGHHH !

Sometime I miss myself.

As you can see from the above, I really do not know why I would explain it in this way. Hmm, some sort of mixed feeling deep inside my heart? Be it in friends, school or some occasion that show my stupidest?  There is this sudden surge of emotions that it’s hard to describe my feelings toward a certain people or environment around me.

In outside: When others do not smile, it does not mean they hate you, but an unfamiliar face that they treat you as a stranger.

In class: When others do not stand your stupidest, it does not mean that you are stupid, but you are blur in understanding.

In school: when others do not have time to entertain you, it does not mean that they want to leave you alone, but they have no choice or rather than I would say in a wrong timing.

I SHALL BE LESS SENSITIVE from now on.